back again my prettys. a graduate and soon to be reckless freak! I've been making a lot more art which of course will be posted to the art tab. also i've been thinking of re-organizing this particular slice of my site to have more zine-like stylings, since I've been so into comics lately. i've been having new experience all over the damn place (good to neutral to bad-on-further-inspection). and i might have more going on mentally and physically than i thought i had but i'll have to get over my fear of doctors if I want to handle that (pending, i'll report back).

a bad memory will really fuck over your sense of self, won't it? i mean that and other childhood factors obviously. but as much as i know it intellectually i've been actually dealing with it lately, and it feels like walking through a desolated landscape. kind of like the lord of the rings. weathertop becomes so much spookier when you realize its the sentry of a wiped-out civilization, not just where frodo gets stabbed on his birthday. in my case though it's doing the work to rebuild my hobbies, value, style, social life and being like hmmm... i've been here before.

invest in a single journal you write all this shit down in, thats my only tip. i've got my diary and my sketchbook and my junk journal and now have added a little 'encyclopedia' to the rotation as well which is great for this sort of stuff. and it sounds so trite but literally so much of this stuff is trying to remember what you wanted to do when you were a kid and didn't have fear in your heart.

got a new fern. got a camcorder. getting better at my rollerskates. gave myself baby bangs.

hopefully more actual updates to the site to follow.